|because life is too short to have weird food rules|
In my opinion, what you don't love about your life falls into one of two categories:
requisite or easier than procuring what you'd really love to do.
Decide which category suits you at your discretion.
As long as our bills are paid, the children are loved & their best interests considered, I'm up for pretty much any unconventional leap of faith in the effort to find satisfaction in this one futile life we have to live.
If you've been reading for a while (thank you!) and if not (welcome) you know that I strive to hear and obey God's voice when discerning the best use of my days. Remember this post?
I heard an interesting clip on Fresh Air, heading home from the gym the other day.
In the clip, Laura Linney, playing the role of a suburban mom dying from cancer, quits her teaching job. She hijacks the high school PA system and says good-bye.
Listen to it here. (a couple minutes is worth it)
Press Play. Then Skip to 7:50 (slide the bar right until you get there) and listen until 11:00. I hope you've listened to it because it's just not the same to read it. But in case you didn't here's the transcript:
"Today, today is the day that I say goodbye to teaching.When we moved to NY, it was to take a great opportunity that came kinda out of nowhere & not at the best time to live nearer to our extended family. We weren't sure how long it would last, but it was too good an offer to refuse, even if we did love our lives in beautiful Virgina.
Many of you may know that I have cancer, but that's not why I'm leaving...
I'm quitting my job today because I recently had a conversation with someone who really loves their job, and I realize I don't love mine. I never even really wanted to be a high school teacher. It's something my dad pushed me into because he thought it was a low bar I could clear, but the truth is it's a high bar, and I'm falling short.
And you may never remember the battles I told you about, the facts, the dates, the wars, but maybe by my quitting today you will remember to be your best self. You find something you love doing. You do not take the easy route...
You know, I've always really cared about my students. I really love you guys. But I'm going home. I'm going to spend more time with the young person whose adorable cheeks I just, I want to squeeze every time I see them, my son. And I'm going to go do things I love. I'm gonna finish learning how to play "The Entertainer" on the piano, which I was doing until my dad stopped paying for lessons because he didn't like to hear me practice.
And I'm going to eat a lot of my favorite pie from Kowalski's because life is too short to have weird food rules. And I'm gonna finally finish writing an appropriate epitaph for a lovely dog. Ha! So, here I go to do my thing. I think my antidepressants just kicked in."
The scripture that swirled in my head was Psalm 90:12 "Teach us know the brevity of life, that we may grow in wisdom." (NLT)
After listening to that clip from The Big C, I read Ecclesiastes. You know, the "everything is meaningless and life is futile" themed book in the Bible. After going through the futility of work & pleasure and more I liked what The Message version of Eccl 3:9-14 had to say:
"But in the end, does it really make a difference what anyone does? I’ve had a good look at what God has given us to do—busywork, mostly. True, God made everything beautiful in itself and in its time—but he’s left us in the dark, so we can never know what God is up to, whether he’s coming or going. I’ve decided that there’s nothing better to do than go ahead and have a good time and get the most we can out of life. That’s it—eat, drink, and make the most of your job. It’s God’s gift.
I’ve also concluded that whatever God does, that’s the way it’s going to be, always. No addition, no subtraction. God’s done it and that’s it. That’s so we’ll quit asking questions and simply worship in holy fear."