For one, less of who I am is negotiable.
For example: I like books and have always aspired to be one of those respectable girls that read.
But, it turns out reading means I can't multi-task and I'm multi-tasker.
On the contrary, I can watch a movie AND fold or sort. This way I get the thrill of being entertained & productive simultaneously. Ahhhhh....
(In exchange for using my imagination, I gain inspiration through the sets and the dialogue. Throw in a romantic montage set to the perfect song & I have my emotional fill!).
Recently a friend mentioned the shame in watching the movie before or instead of finishing the book, and that's when I discovered this new version of me.
I spent ZERO time pondering how I should change or be ashamed, even if I do agree: it's more commendable to read than watch & most often the book far surpasses the film.
Could I be nearing the end of "If you'd like me better if I weren't exactly me, "me" is negotiable"?
Not sure. But, in this matter, I know who I am.
I read only because it's good for me as a writer (& sometimes the book doesn't have a movie-yet!)
But my heart belongs to movies. I'm a movie-girl. Unashamedly.
I'm equally a girl-friend-girl. If you're my friend, it's because you possess something I value-whether we have it in common or not. :)
I loved, loved, loved this post by RS editor, Advice I wish I could give to my younger self:
- Stop apologizing so much.
- Appreciate how you look right now. It’s a lot better than you think.
- Understand that sometimes boys are just clueless. They are not being intentionally clueless to hurt your feelings.
- If you think everybody is looking at you, you’re wrong.
- When you are arguing with someone, yelling rarely accomplishes anything.
- Many of the smartest people are the best listeners.
- Arguing with your boyfriend after 10 p.m. is just completely counterproductive.